even rain clouds have silver linings
Hello my love ,
first off, thanks for even being here to read my innermost thoughts and feelings. I journal pretty much everyday and it’s usually to release or analyze whats going on in my mind since I’m not good at leaning on other people . My journal is my therapy but I wanted to try something new and turn my blog posts into journal entries at an attempt to open up more to those who care to read it .
Lately life has been TESTING me .. throwing the most uncomfy challenges my way , bringing heavy feelings and unhealed wounds to the surface forcing me to experience them in the most viseral ways . And it feels like Im not the only one.. My whole family , and many of my friends, even strangers i come across online are all wading in the muddy waters of discomfort , getting lost along the way and feeling just plainly fucking miserable.
I could blame it on the recent total lunar eclipse we just had on september 7th which is the first of 2 eclipses this month . Eclipses shake shit up . like severely .. It exposes things that need to be seen and felt in order to give you the opportunity to learn and evolve. Its all for the sake of aligning you with your highest good because we cant HEAL it.. unless we FEEL it. and Eclipses force you to feel it all.. ugh
Anyways… I wanted to write this to encourage any of you also going through a heavy time right now by sharing this lil story my mom told me years ago that stuck with me . Its the analogy of the Lobster…
A lobster knows its time for him to shed its old shell when it starts getting uncomfortable and restrictive. the discomfort is the sign its time to grow and once it begins the molting process and sheds its protective skin, he’s vulnerable and must find somewhere to hide from predators and danger. While it’s hiding away from the world , his new shell begins to grow and after a while , he is able to go back out into the ocean stronger and more resilient .
I always think of this when life gets uncomfy. It’s a signal for growth . It’s time to release all that no longer serves us and everything thats constricting us . It comes with fear, leaving our comfort zone , getting vulnerable and often calls for us to retreat into a place of solitude to process the experience and give our new “shell” time to grow. In the end , we emerge a new version of ourselves. A version that is stronger , clearer , more capable, and with a fresh sense of purpose.
Life cant always be rainbows and unicorn farts.. Its dense and heavy and complex.. but these challenges , tests, hard times.. whatever you wanna call it is imperative for our growth . If we have nothing to push us forward and reveal to us whats holding us back from becoming .. we would never become anything. We would remain stagnant in. our comfort zones never to really experience the fullness of who we are meant to be in this lifetime.
So with that.. I have learned to feel gratitude for the heavy. Ive learned to give thanks to the pain and discomfort because at the end of the day , its the driving force behind evolution and idk about you but I want to see what me at my best looks like and i’m willing to keep dying and becoming reborn as many times as it takes to get there.
I hope this helps you find the silver lining in even the darkest of clouds.
Never forget that you are LOVED. <3 thanks for being here
-Talii
